You think I'm being cocky, but I'm only being honest..

And thats exactly what it is. Honesty. In its rawist form.
Even if it does show me and a less than modest light..

I know that I'm different to many people. And not in a cliché way, as in "Everyone is different and special in their own unique way" but in a "Wow, there aren't a lot of people that are like this".

I work hard at what I do and what many call ARROGANCE I simply call PRIDE.
Its this pride that brings confidence which in turn enables me to the things I can do today, and I know it makes me personality distictively rememeberable, which of course is essential in this "bussiness".

Im not going to change it. I love it.
So I guess I'm just gonnaa ride its back all the way into success :)

Simon Jr.
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Est-ce que c'est la fin?

This actually might be the end.

And not at all the way I intended.. It such a shame considering the way we were and the way we both thought we we're indestructable.
Was we really as childish as we thought we never were?
Should all this been done a long time ago?

"Everytime I try to leave something keeps pulling me back"

Nobody can answer these questions but I really do wish someone actually could.

She says shes cried out.
Apart of me wants her to cry. Not in a sadistic way, but that way I defiantly know that she still cares..
Because one of my biggest fears when it comes to our relationship is the fact that one day she is going to fall out of love with me.

I know one day I'm going to look back at these posts and think "Simon, what were you doing with your life?!" and I hope the Simon of the future has better luck than what I do now..
Est-ce que c'est la fin?
J'espère pas.

Simon Jr
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If the whole world thought like me..

Being the egotistical guy that I am, the worst thing that could possibly happen to me has happened.
I have become victim to the very aspects that I critisised in an earlier blog.

By this I mean the one about messy break ups where adults turn into complete children again..

Well, this has happened to me now.. and rather than being a spectator and using my acute skills of clinical observation, I have become a first hand sufferer of this concept.

I won't bore you with the details but all I will say is that Im very much confundled with the whole situation..
This may be because to me everything is so simple and I can't see why there are so many problems that arise solely because of the things I do..
Surely, If the whole world thought like me then there wouldn't be a problem at all..
But then if this is the case it poses the question, "Who is at fault, Me or the world?"

Now, I know which one I'd like to blame but I guess sometimes you have to closer to home to find the source of a big problem..

Its crazy because if this person knew what I wanted.. Simple thought it may be.. They could have what they wanted..in turn, granting me what I want..
Which is essentially to be with her.

Sometimes she reads my blogs..

So If your reading this Wyldie..
I love you and I will do for 400 Christmases.

Simon Jr.
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Aujourd'hui? J'ai fait rien :/

Yes. That's right. Absolutely nothing productive apart from practising singing with some impressive trills if I may say so myself ;)) There I go on my own trumpet again!

The contrast between doing alot of stuff at college and getting ready for a busy but rewarding year and not doing anything todat has sent me into a bit of a ʞɔnɟpɐǝɥ tbh..
OMG.. Here's one for you. How's this for harsh?! My Stepdad thinks I'm gay because I like musical theatre!
I have a girlfriend!


Anyway, I can't wait for ballet.. It's going to be FABULOUS!!

Simon Jr.
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So we're back...

Welcome to a new college year, Simon!
The people are better than ever, the timetable is fantastic and everything seems to be going finee :D
I'm getting my new tap shoes next week, my Jazz shoes should shortly follow and my ballet shoes should follow that..
You see I ordered them in the order I would need them :)

I actuallyy can't wait to get back into my musical theatre vibee.. Im definatly concentrating more on my dance this year.. and try and get to some extra classes while im not working..
It's quite hard trying to juggle lots of things likee college, work and dance but I suppose if I can maintain a good balance of all three (but a prioritised balance; college be the most dominant) then I think I could really end up doing well this year :)
We'll see.

Simon Jr.
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My name is : Simon... Im here to help.

London photoshoot was everything I thought it would be and more. Fantastic.
Getting treated like you are the most important thing on the planet, (and most desirable, as photographers do absolutely nothing for inducing subtlty into my attitude!) but that sort of treatment sits with me quite well..

I must say there are some fabulous shots that I will be sure to upload as soon as I get the finished product!
I recall one lady comparing me to Will Smith ;))

Anyway, if you are wondering about the relevance of the title to this blog..
As you know for the shoot I had to travel 110 miles to Islington, London.. but to get there I had to go to travel to Victoria underground station, and in the queue to purchase my ticket.. I was stood behind three french people looking a bit confundled with the ticket machine..
I waited to hear them speak (just to confirm they were french) and jumped in to help.
They were grateful for my help as the grumpy, old tube guy seemed to have no time for them..
and with the competent use of "Attendez!", "Ca suffit!" and "Oui, Je vais aller au Piccadilly aussi, alors si vous voulez, vous pouvez venir avec moi!" I helped those friendly guys out!

So monday sees the start of another college year studying Musical Theatre quite practically! I believe there is no better way ;))
But for now there will be no song and dance for me cos it be time for bed!

Bonne nuit tout le monde!
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Say Cheese!

Thursday will be one of my well deserved days off from the store =D
Which is why I am going to London to get my agency photos taken :))
It will be very exciting as its my first professional photo shoot!

For a while this year, I've felt like i've been waiting for stuff to happen a lot..
A lot of stuff couldn't be done because other stuff had to be done! loll
But now I feel like all of that has been resolved and I am really looking forward to.. well, the rest of my life (as cringy as that might sound!)

So there we go :)
Good times all round Ahaa..
Fingers crossed for me on Thursday and fingers crossed for a certain teacher across the pond for Tuesday ;)

Simon Jr.
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There is no better feeling than..

being on stage.
To me, it is an unnegotiable factor of life that cannot be compared.

I adore the thrill of live theatre. I thi nk theres are real energy that could only be generated from live action.
I find it so hard to become emotional involved with a film, I find there is more sencerity in watching a piece of evoking theatre.

Lights - Music - Movement - Emotions - Magnetism = Theatre.
There is nothing better.

Simon Jr.
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The amazing female mind

I am constantly baffled, confused, confundled, bemused, bewildered and conbefixiated with the female mind! Okay I made that last word up but the point is, I just don't get women..
I like to think I know what they like.. romantic wise.. but they have to be the most complicated creatures on the earths surface.

They have a tendancy to bitch about other womens attitudes and appearances, while also moan about themselves and their appearances :S
This is something I could probably place on every man.. Women with no curves aren't as attractive as they are made out to be..

Personallyy, I prefer a real women with curves and voluptuousness..
Much more attractive than skin and bones :D


I have a question. Is there any such thing as a mature break up?
I have this friend whos recently broken up with his girlfriend and his words to her were "that's it and I never want to see you again!".. Aren't those words that you use in nusery school when you fall out with your best friend and then make up five minutes later?!
Its like you become a child again and all sence and maturity goes out the window!
No matter how old you are, emotional pain turns you temperarily back into a baby ;)

Simon Jr.
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Head in the clouds.

Have you ever felt like you have your head so far up in the clouds that you really are just losing your sense of direction? Losing yourself? Losing who you are? Theres no shame in changing your personality but what about losing the very aspects of yourself that make you who you are?
Its scary.

Me and my girlfriend have been going out for nearly eleven months now and in my eyes, she hung the moon. But I think I may have freaked her out a little yesterday night by telling her that I had been having thoughts of the near future. Nothing to serious but maybe a year or so down the line. They were totally innocent thoughts but she told me that to her, life is a very long time, people are constantly changing so when people talk about stuff like that at our age, it doesn't really mean anything to her.
Well, I took that to heart because it made me think that maybe our relationship isn't as rock solid as I thought.
I mean, were not immature. If anything I think we're quite responsible young adults who know the difference between being real and being a phony teenage couple who are in love after the first week.
We take time over things and we're going strong. So her saying this was a shock to me.

Obviously I wasn't expecting her to say "YES! LETS GET MARRIED TOMMOROW!" but by the sounds of how she said it to me, it made her sound like she was saying "Simon, don't think that far ahead because I might change my mind about loving you tommorow so don't bother"

Wow.

Before Emma I was quite a self-centered person.. Not maliciously, selfishly, self-centered but most of the things I did, I did to help me prepare for my career or gain experiance for it..
But then I met her and she made me care so much about other things that I would've before like, real love. But her saying that to me has kinda made me yank my head down from the clouds and get back to concentrating on my goals.
This won't change much between me and her, I think I'll just be a little less lovey.

I don't know. I'll have to see.

BUT ANYWAY, I didn't go and get my exam results today because I have work later on so i'll have to wait for them to be sent to my house.. lol Waiting game :D

But now, Im gonnaa catch some zzz's before work.
Lot of thinking to do I think :))

Catch you on the flip side ;)
Simon Jr.
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Be Incomparable..

..An important aspect of modern life, im sure you will agree.

To be incomparable, is to be different and in this day and age, the difference between two people in competitive situations could make all the difference! Is it me or is the word "difference" sound reallyy weird?!

Anyway, this notion was inspired by B. Reardon from Boston, Massachusetts.. Quite a way away from my humble island of England! But she is a Actor/Drama Teacher who understands what the business is all about.

Her idea of "Being Incomparble" is 100% essential in the business.. For example, the auditioning process I am currently in you need to prove you are better in every way than the person before and after you. You need to stand out, and play to what the directors are looking for. Do your research and make yourself stand out.


This is going to sound realy cringey but I believe before you start pretending to be anybody else, i.e acting, playing a role, you need to understand and know yourself.

That is why I believe I've been successful in my short career so far.

I believe that understanding myself has enabled me to be a good actor, as I am able to use myself as a template to create my perception of any character I must portray (if that makes any sense at all!)..
Short Example: If I am given a character who is shy and quiet, I can look at myself, who is a relatively loud person, modify that aspect and have a play around with the outcome..

The more variables you are given the more difficult yet more fun the process becomes!

I guess what I'm trying to emulate is Socrates' golden rule "Know Thyself"..

Much harder than it sounds, but a valued life skill.

I feel sorry for the women though, I just hope they can understand themselves better than I can understand them!


Simon Jr.

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I've got a feeling that my dreams are within touching distance..

As cringey as that might sound, there is no reason for me to feel any different.
This is obviously all down to my audition last thursday, which I felt super confident about and of course the result of this audition may set me up for bigger and better things in the future.. Thus changing my dream into a reality.

Is it possible for any dream to come true if you believe in it enough?
Or are there some dreams that will never be fulfilled?

I know what the world would like me to say.. I know what the guys upstairs with there heads in the politically correct clouds would want me to say...
But in actual fact, I believe that belief is not enough.
I believe hard work, dedication and sacrifice for most..

That's why, without sounding like I'm blowing my own trumpet, I believe I deserve a chance like this..
Because I always follow a quote that one of my close relatives told me once when I was a child and it has always stuck in my head, they said, "Simon, The only way to make your dreams come true.. Is to wake up"
And I believe that that is my most powerful motivation.

I can't actually describe how it feels to know that your whole life and the dreams it created could be resting on one phone call I receive later on next week..
It's actually quite scary in a way.

I'm quite adament that this won't be my only oppurtunity if all dosen't go to plan, I will of course perservere despite the set back, and try again.

I've got a feeling that my dreams are within touching distance.. Oooh they feel good.

Simon Jr.
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People are not nice people!

Although it goes against most of what I believe in as a christian but its something I've been gradually realising over the last couple of years of my schooling age, an age of which I consider to be my "growing up years". People are just not nice people.
If I was unsure of my condemnation, it was certainly clarified for me on a recent trip to London, Wednesday daytime.
It was a normal day in London and I had an hour and a half to spare before my audition, so I decided to spend half an hour just relaxing in Trafalgar Square at the base of Nelsons Column..
Nothing unusual there but its what I saw whilst sitting on this fantastic display of historical architeture..
I realised that every single one of these people in front of me have their own lives.

Not very shocking huh?
Well, Your right..not really..
But then I realised, out of all these people.. Londoners, Scousers, Manks, Australians, Italians, French, Spaniards, Americans, Germans..
None of those people cared a less whether I was there or not.

My point being, would anyone even care if I dropped dead that instance?
Just so long as it wern't them?
The answer is No. They wouldn't care.
Which is a horrible thing to say but its true.

Theres a lot that comes to mind when a realisation such as mine occurs..
Strange, paranoiac thoughts!

I guess people are happier in their small selection of people.

I then thought if I ever become famous, would it change?
The answer is of course it would!
People have a fixation with famous people..
I don't know what it is about the more times your face is seen, the more you are admired.

When real heroes such as Doctors and Nurses and Firemen.. They are walked past in the streets as in the eyes of the modern "common-fashionista" society, They are no-one.

But obviously, there are nice people in the world.. You've just got to find them...
But hey, Thats half the fun ;)

Simon Jr.
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Well That Went Well :D

I think I reallyy impressed today :)

I had my audition today with JOHN SULLIVAN (the director of "only fools and horses") present, and they all seemed to enjoy How I performed, which of course made me extremely excited for the next week of anticipation until I finally find out whether i've been successful :D

Apart from the fatigue thats creeping in, I'm starting to feel a bit pleased with myself..
I've got a lot to look forward to this week so it's all good times..

I've been thinking about something interesting to post on here but tbh I thinks it's been that eventful that I don't think it's necessary to exaggerate :D

Now, I think it's time to prepare for a night of
D ancing, R aving, U biquitariness, G ambling & S obriety!

Simon Jr.
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The Start Of Something New

I tried to resist the urge NOT to quote “High School Musical”, but the relevance of the quote was just too compelling

I’m Simon Hall Jr. Hello. I’m 17.
New to Blogging and I guess you can say I’m kind of new to the world.I’m English, and I also speak French.
And then comes the interesting part..I’m a young actor (That’s what they call us, as we’re at that difficult age where we’re neither old enough to be called “Adult Actor” or just “Actor, or young enough to be called “Child Actor”) =]

Last Thursday I went to an audition with the BBC for an upcoming Television spin-off of “Only Fools and Horses”, called “Sex, Drugs & Rock ‘n’ Chips”…It went very well and I’m just waiting to see what’s what with that :)
Sooo fingers crossed guys.

I’ll be sure to keep you guys posted.
Symon Jr!
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