Head in the clouds.

Have you ever felt like you have your head so far up in the clouds that you really are just losing your sense of direction? Losing yourself? Losing who you are? Theres no shame in changing your personality but what about losing the very aspects of yourself that make you who you are?
Its scary.

Me and my girlfriend have been going out for nearly eleven months now and in my eyes, she hung the moon. But I think I may have freaked her out a little yesterday night by telling her that I had been having thoughts of the near future. Nothing to serious but maybe a year or so down the line. They were totally innocent thoughts but she told me that to her, life is a very long time, people are constantly changing so when people talk about stuff like that at our age, it doesn't really mean anything to her.
Well, I took that to heart because it made me think that maybe our relationship isn't as rock solid as I thought.
I mean, were not immature. If anything I think we're quite responsible young adults who know the difference between being real and being a phony teenage couple who are in love after the first week.
We take time over things and we're going strong. So her saying this was a shock to me.

Obviously I wasn't expecting her to say "YES! LETS GET MARRIED TOMMOROW!" but by the sounds of how she said it to me, it made her sound like she was saying "Simon, don't think that far ahead because I might change my mind about loving you tommorow so don't bother"

Wow.

Before Emma I was quite a self-centered person.. Not maliciously, selfishly, self-centered but most of the things I did, I did to help me prepare for my career or gain experiance for it..
But then I met her and she made me care so much about other things that I would've before like, real love. But her saying that to me has kinda made me yank my head down from the clouds and get back to concentrating on my goals.
This won't change much between me and her, I think I'll just be a little less lovey.

I don't know. I'll have to see.

BUT ANYWAY, I didn't go and get my exam results today because I have work later on so i'll have to wait for them to be sent to my house.. lol Waiting game :D

But now, Im gonnaa catch some zzz's before work.
Lot of thinking to do I think :))

Catch you on the flip side ;)
Simon Jr.
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