You think I'm being cocky, but I'm only being honest..

And thats exactly what it is. Honesty. In its rawist form.
Even if it does show me and a less than modest light..

I know that I'm different to many people. And not in a cliché way, as in "Everyone is different and special in their own unique way" but in a "Wow, there aren't a lot of people that are like this".

I work hard at what I do and what many call ARROGANCE I simply call PRIDE.
Its this pride that brings confidence which in turn enables me to the things I can do today, and I know it makes me personality distictively rememeberable, which of course is essential in this "bussiness".

Im not going to change it. I love it.
So I guess I'm just gonnaa ride its back all the way into success :)

Simon Jr.
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Est-ce que c'est la fin?

This actually might be the end.

And not at all the way I intended.. It such a shame considering the way we were and the way we both thought we we're indestructable.
Was we really as childish as we thought we never were?
Should all this been done a long time ago?

"Everytime I try to leave something keeps pulling me back"

Nobody can answer these questions but I really do wish someone actually could.

She says shes cried out.
Apart of me wants her to cry. Not in a sadistic way, but that way I defiantly know that she still cares..
Because one of my biggest fears when it comes to our relationship is the fact that one day she is going to fall out of love with me.

I know one day I'm going to look back at these posts and think "Simon, what were you doing with your life?!" and I hope the Simon of the future has better luck than what I do now..
Est-ce que c'est la fin?
J'espère pas.

Simon Jr
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If the whole world thought like me..

Being the egotistical guy that I am, the worst thing that could possibly happen to me has happened.
I have become victim to the very aspects that I critisised in an earlier blog.

By this I mean the one about messy break ups where adults turn into complete children again..

Well, this has happened to me now.. and rather than being a spectator and using my acute skills of clinical observation, I have become a first hand sufferer of this concept.

I won't bore you with the details but all I will say is that Im very much confundled with the whole situation..
This may be because to me everything is so simple and I can't see why there are so many problems that arise solely because of the things I do..
Surely, If the whole world thought like me then there wouldn't be a problem at all..
But then if this is the case it poses the question, "Who is at fault, Me or the world?"

Now, I know which one I'd like to blame but I guess sometimes you have to closer to home to find the source of a big problem..

Its crazy because if this person knew what I wanted.. Simple thought it may be.. They could have what they wanted..in turn, granting me what I want..
Which is essentially to be with her.

Sometimes she reads my blogs..

So If your reading this Wyldie..
I love you and I will do for 400 Christmases.

Simon Jr.
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